Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in babygrand1's LiveJournal:

Sunday, April 13th, 2008
1:03 pm	Never say Never. I'll never like shrimp. I'll never date him. I'll never cheat. I'll never be a waitress. I'll never wear pink. I'll never smoke cigarettes. I'll never steal again. I'll never appreciate contemporary art. I'll never enjoy a country song. I'll never eat meat again. I'll never get over my first love. I'll never like cats. I'll never lose touch with them. I'll never trust prescribed medications. I'll never move back to the South. I'll never mess with drugs. I'll never cut myself. I'll never work at an animal shelter. I'll never miss any classes. I'll never find magic. I'll never understand the appeal of Justin Timberlake. I'll never consider rehab. I'll never choose to drive without a seatbelt. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 24th, 2006
12:13 am	"I love you means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect perfection from you, just as you don't expect it from me. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you are in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you are down, not just when you're fun to be with. I love you means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking, dreaming, wanting, and needing you constantly." HEAD OVER FEET I had no choice but to hear you You stated your case time and again I thought about it You treat me like I’m a princess I’m not used to liking that You ask how my day was You’ve already won me over in spite of me Don’t be alarmed if I fall head over feet Don’t be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn’t help it It’s all your fault Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole You’re so much braver than I gave you credit for That’s not lip service You are the bearer of unconditional things You held your breath and the door for me Thanks for your patience You’re the best listener that I’ve ever met You’re my best friend Best friend with benefits What took me so long I’ve never felt this healthy before I’ve never wanted something rational I am aware now I am aware now STAND BY ME When the night has come And the land is dark And the moon is the only light we see No, I won't be afraid Oh, I won't be afraid Just as long as you stand Stand by me, so Darling darling stand by me Oh, stand by me Oh stand, stand by me, stand by me If the sky that we look upon Should tumble and fall Ot the mountain Should crumble to the sea I won't cry, I won't cry No, I won't shed a tear Just as long as you stand Stand by me, and Whenever you're in trouble Won't you stand by me, oh stand by me JESUS WALKS We at war We at war with terrorism, racism, and most of all we at war with ourselves (Jesus Walks) God show me the way because the Devil try to break me down (Jesus Walks with me with me with me with me) [Fades] You know what the Midwest is? Young & Restless Where restless Niggas might snatch your necklace The next these Niggas might jack your Lexus Somebody tell these Niggas who Kanye West is I walk through the valley where the shadow of death is Top floor of the view alone will leave you breathless *Gasping for air* Try to catch it *Gasping for air* It's kinda hard Gettin' choked by detectives yeah yeah now check the method They be asking us questions, harass and arrest us Saying "we eat pieces of shit like you for breakfast." Huh? Yall eat pieces of shit what's the basis? We ain't goin' nowhere but got suits and cases A trunk full of coke rental car from Avis My momma used to say only Jesus can save us Well momma I know I act a fool But I'll be gone till november I got packs to move I Hope (Jesus Walks) God show me the way because the Devil try to break me down (Jesus Walks with me) The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now (Jesus Walks) And I don't think there’s nothing I can do to right my wrongs (Jesus Walks with me) I wanna talk to God but I'm afraid cause we ain't spoke in so long (Jesus Walks) God show me the way because the Devil try to break me down (Jesus Walks with me) The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now (Jesus Walks) And I don't think there’s nothing I can do now to right my wrongs (Jesus Walks) I wanna to talk to God but I'm afraid cause we ain't spoke in so long (Jesus Walks with me with me with me) [Fades] Oh to the hustlers, killers, murderers, drug dealers even the strippers, (Jesus walks with them) To the victims of welfare feel we living in hell here, hell yea (Jesus walks with them) Now hear Ye hear me wanna see Thee more clearly I know He hear me when my feet get weary Cause we’re the almost nearly extinct We rappers is role models we rap we don't think I ain't here to argue about his facial features Or here to convert atheists into believers I'm just tryin to say the way school need teachers The way Kathy Lee needed Regis that's the way I need Jesus So here go my single dawg radio needs this They said you can rap about anything except for Jesus That means guns, sex, lies, video tape But if I talk about God my record won't get played huh Well if this take away my from spins Which will probably take away from my ends Then I hope it take away from sins And bring the day that I’m dreamin about Next time I'm in the club everybody screamin out (Jesus Walks) God show me the way because the devil try to break me down (Jesus Walks with me) The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now (Jesus Walks) And I don’t think there’s nothing I can do to right my wrongs (Jesus Walks with me with me with me with me) [Fades] I wanna talk to God but I’m afraid cause we ain’t spoke in so long ..... BEST OF YOU I’ve got another confession to make I’m your fool Everyone’s got their chains to break Holdin’ you Were you born to resist or be abused? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Are you gone and onto someone new? I needed somewhere to hang my head Without your noose You gave me something that I didn’t have But had no use I was too weak to give in Too strong to lose My heart is under arrest again But I break loose My head is giving me life or death But I can’t choose I swear I’ll never give in I refuse Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Has someone taken your faith? Its real, the pain you feel Your trust, you must Confess Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Oh... Has someone taken your faith? Its real, the pain you feel The life, the love You'd die to heal The hope that start The broken hearts Your trust, you must Confess Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? I’ve got another confession my friend I’m no fool I’m getting tired of starting again Somewhere new Were you born to resist or be abused? I swear I’ll never give in I refuse Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Has someone taken your faith? Its real, the pain you feel Your trust, you must Confess Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 15th, 2006
4:03 am	7.) "Never or...Never" My to do list is long, it streches for miles Growing continuously as my tasks and chores pile I have laundry and cleaning and homework to start But choose pleasure and addictions and matters of the heart Procrastination is a deadly thing-- it knows the worst weakness is flawed sense of timing I say: four in the morning, I'll be just fine Don't need to be anywhere 'til seven-twenty-nine 'Course, some obligations I must always hold, don't fret: Going to the Hut to get my paycheck, Tumbling at Champion to learn a new trick, Visiting with my Favorite if just for a peck I'll make time for my dogs and for food and for friends But at night, all alone, so much time to spend! I could check off all my "undones," give my "to-do"s a mend I could focus on studies, debate homework, and pick up a pen Or easily begin belated correspondence I keep meaning to send... But what do I do--let procrastination take hold! I sit and wait for the night to turn old Then morning comes and not much has changed The to-do list, still bloated, and my motivation still strained (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 7th, 2006
10:36 pm	today only semi-sucked. i got to work out today and the anti-laziness made me feel pretty good. but that didnt stop me from bingeing whatsoever, sadly. i'm 94 lbs almost. theres no way ill be 89 by friday. unless i simply stop bingeing....but its so much harder than i thought. its my way of procrastinating so that i dont have to...live, pursue life, be challenged, i dont know what. i didnt have to work today, but i do tomorrow, 5-7:15. kind of nervous of fucking it up and looking stupid... i feel sooo gross lately, but today not as much after i exercised. i think ill make this a priority from now on, like it used to be. i was doing well today, had a big apple sliced throughout the school day, i am trying to start eating more often so i get my metabolism back. but then when i got home., my mom went to shower and i was alone for a good 45 mins maybe...i didnt even WANT to binge but i did anyways. and then i had dinner. and then i left to go binge some more at the grocery store. what a day. how freaking sad. its like..every day. (Comment on this)